Taking the plunge(I'm not ready)

So I've decided to just blog this.
The planning stages I mean(as I've gone ahead and named the site.)

I started reading "the 4 hour workweek" and among random other time-management and motivate-your-lazy-ass publications I have thoroughly decided to get my act together.

I thought it would be helpful to chronicle my exploits in getting in shape, getting out of debt(I started with not much, but the practices are the same), becoming a better person and finally being happy financially.

To preface who I am and where I am in life, so you can manage to figure out if you identify with anything other than the human condition, I'll give you a few details.

I'm 22 years old. I work for a web development company doing things that are below my skill level and I am still amazed that I don't have to work fast food or menial labor. I am a single parent, a high-school dropout(and then, a community college dropout). I have an IQ of 169 and I am more often that not completely helpless, and stupid. I feel I have been working my butt off for the past 6 years to get nowhere and I feel like I have conversely fallen into a cushy job with little effort.

I attribute most of what I feel about my life as due to the failings of the human brain at recording information. I know it sucks, and reading a self-help book about your past ERASES your past and makes you believe the "standard" past of the book is your life up to this point, bringing you to the conclusion that THIS BOOK is the only thing that will change it. This is not, and never will be true because our very nature prohibits it.

Our ability to receive and process new information is dampened by our tendency to immediately compare and contrast the differences between this new information and the old stuff in our brains. Its like a filter, changing information even as we see it and even before our conscious minds are aware of it. No one is open minded.

This makes massive, sudden paradigm shifts very hard, and although we remember very strongly "the moment when our whole world changes" the truth is that this moment does not exist. It is always a slow change from one idea to the next as the old idea has immediate, generational influence over the new. However, once the change has been made we let our conscious selves know, whereupon we then perceive our behavior and thought styles to be different, when in fact they have already BEEN different.

So- I believe I have reached the crux of one of those shifts, and although I have been perhaps thinking this way for awhile, I am just now noticing, and just now able to log the differences.

So I'll post stats.

I've been working in web design for about 3 years.
I have been working with my company for 8 weeks.
I feel uninspired to reach my full potential here.
I make 600 dollars a week at my current job.
My expenses total 567 a week- not including food.
I receive an average of 100 dollars a week from side projects, various refunds, investments and if I need it, help from my parents.
This leaves me with about 140 dollars a week to eat and invest in my future.
I work for 40 hours a week(I can get a little overtime, but not much) and I sleep for 40 hours a week.
I spend about 7 hours a week grooming, 14 eating.
Leaving me with 67 hours to pack my life into. This is only slightly longer than my working time.
I'm not including driving(I walk to work and don't routinely drive) or various obligations (like family dinners, birthdays and time with my son) in that.

My next step is to get working from home more viable, since while I am at work I only do about 5 hours of work for the 8 that I am here, and I'd like to reclaim the 3 hours a day to work on reclaiming more.